Should I post blogs more often?
I wonder
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
Well, I almost made it to a year without posting a blog
But I couldn't resist.
Amongst the writing of a paper today, I stumbled upon some blogs written by some old friends and some new friends. I love reading blogs, I love knowing what is on the hearts of those who are close to me, whether or not we see each other regularly. One verse, however, stuck out to me very clearly:
A fool gives full vent to his anger,
but a wise man keeps himself under control. Proverbs29:11
Sometimes I joke about being a humble and patient person...but that's all they are...jokes.
The truth is, I'm a very prideful person. And patience...well...I don't want to talk about it besides saying I don't have it. But as of late, the places where I've really seen myself fail are in anger, in cynicism, and in overall pessimism. I've been told that for a pessimist, I'm pretty optimistic. Maybe, but that still makes me a pessimist. I like to tell myself that lately I've been more angry than usual because I am flat out exhausted and I don't have the energy to keep it in. While there is some truth to that, I still know it is merely a cowardly excuse. It may be that only the wise men know the secret to keeping themselves under control. In which case, I would have a great excuse, as I am not a wise person. Honestly, I could go on and make a ton of excuses without too much effort...I'm good at making up excuses. But no, I am writing this to be truthful and real.
I think it pretty much boils down to this: I am a fool.
A part of me wants to just leave it at that.
I think too many days I just leave it at that.
In fact, I may very well leave it at that every day.
So how the f am I living with purpose?
That's why I gave that blog this name...because I want to live with purpose. One of my favorite quotes is "live as if it were on purpose." I can't remember who said it. I feel like the people who I look up to and admire all have something in common...they all seem to live as if it were on purpose.
I think one of the steps one has to take to not be a fool is to live on purpose instead of on accident. Too often I live on accident. I must clarify that I don't think that life is an accident, I merely hope to illustrate the standpoint of one who let's life pass them by.
Long story short, I've got some goals...but right now the stress-filled caffeine high of a weekend is catching up to me. The last few minutes of rest have been nice and well-welcomed, but I'd still like a vacation. Bedtime now, there will be many more thoughts to record another day on this blog which may have the cheesiest url ever.
Just sayin'
Sometimes I wonder if I'll regret being so open in a place where anyone can read my thoughts and my heart.
I'm over it.
Amongst the writing of a paper today, I stumbled upon some blogs written by some old friends and some new friends. I love reading blogs, I love knowing what is on the hearts of those who are close to me, whether or not we see each other regularly. One verse, however, stuck out to me very clearly:
A fool gives full vent to his anger,
but a wise man keeps himself under control. Proverbs29:11
Sometimes I joke about being a humble and patient person...but that's all they are...jokes.
The truth is, I'm a very prideful person. And patience...well...I don't want to talk about it besides saying I don't have it. But as of late, the places where I've really seen myself fail are in anger, in cynicism, and in overall pessimism. I've been told that for a pessimist, I'm pretty optimistic. Maybe, but that still makes me a pessimist. I like to tell myself that lately I've been more angry than usual because I am flat out exhausted and I don't have the energy to keep it in. While there is some truth to that, I still know it is merely a cowardly excuse. It may be that only the wise men know the secret to keeping themselves under control. In which case, I would have a great excuse, as I am not a wise person. Honestly, I could go on and make a ton of excuses without too much effort...I'm good at making up excuses. But no, I am writing this to be truthful and real.
I think it pretty much boils down to this: I am a fool.
A part of me wants to just leave it at that.
I think too many days I just leave it at that.
In fact, I may very well leave it at that every day.
So how the f am I living with purpose?
That's why I gave that blog this name...because I want to live with purpose. One of my favorite quotes is "live as if it were on purpose." I can't remember who said it. I feel like the people who I look up to and admire all have something in common...they all seem to live as if it were on purpose.
I think one of the steps one has to take to not be a fool is to live on purpose instead of on accident. Too often I live on accident. I must clarify that I don't think that life is an accident, I merely hope to illustrate the standpoint of one who let's life pass them by.
Long story short, I've got some goals...but right now the stress-filled caffeine high of a weekend is catching up to me. The last few minutes of rest have been nice and well-welcomed, but I'd still like a vacation. Bedtime now, there will be many more thoughts to record another day on this blog which may have the cheesiest url ever.
Just sayin'
Sometimes I wonder if I'll regret being so open in a place where anyone can read my thoughts and my heart.
I'm over it.
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